the one that always make my heart flutters

Assalamualaikum and hi!

It’s been halfway through Ramadhan, and I’ve started to feel lazy to wake up for suhoor. Hehe. Feel like sleeping in and wake up late as usual, just to go to work.

Anyway, the real reason I wanna write today was I feel like I need to document this somewhere, and I feel this blog is quite safe because not many people read them.

I happened few days ago, on a Sunday, if I am not mistaken. It’s just happened something happened between me and AS, we argued a bit, just normal marriage thing, which eventually made me feel sad. I suddenly started to feel low and melancholy. I had a short nap and when I woke up, I watched the movie on Netflix, “PS: I love you”. It only took me like 5 mins to feel sad all over again and I tried to text E about it, when RS came in the room. 

My eyes were teary and she asked me,

“Mama, mama okay?”

‘Tak sayang. Mama sedih sikit. Kejap ya Ayya, mama msj kawan mama jap’ – so I continue typing, while at that I started crying.

Then I peeked at RS, she was gloomy too. RS was having a very sad face. Immediately, I stopped typing and asked RS,

‘Kenapa ni Ayya?’ – then she cried but she didn’t answer me.

Okay, to be honest during this time I was like ‘lah kenapa lah budak ni nangis pulakkkkk? Aku yang sedih dia pun nangis jugak’. 

‘Ayya sedih kenapa ni Ayya?’

“Sebab mama sedih”

I seriously want to laugh at the instant cause it was cute. But then, she made me feel the love she had for me. I felt as if she didn’t want to see me sad. Mind you, she was barely 4 years old.

So, I wiped my tears and comforted her, gave her a hug and told her it’s okay. She was okay a bit later, but she kept saying that she was sad because I was sad. Mummy’s crying inside but to calm her down, I must remain calm too. At this instant I was so thankful that Allah’s allowed me to have this beautiful girl in my life. Hopefully, I can be a good mother to her.

Doakan anak kecil ni membesar dengan sihat dan menjadi orang baik dan disayangi.

RS in her element hehe 

p/s: I love you always my dearest babygirl.