that rolled minyak attar

I typed the title when I was busy studying for my paper yesterday. Yeah, so distracted, tell me about it haha. Anyway, here I am again, my plan for this morning is that I want to stay awake after Fajr, eventho, last night has got to be one of my terrible night sleep. I don’t know why but it took me almost two hours trying to get myself to sleep and finally at around 2 am, I slept and kept on waking up every 30 minutes or so. OH! It's the small mocha from Ralph's café that I drink after iftar. Now it all makes sense. Hm.

Regardless, I was thinking about my late grandfather when I typed the title. What triggered the thought must be because of the video by Ustaz Don, he reminded guys to wear perfume on Eid and this scene come to play in my mind. 

I was probably in standard 2 or 3, can't remember exactly. But anyway, our family always go back to Kelantan every time it's Eid. So that year, that early morning, as usual, I got ready, wore my best dress i.e. baju kurung and headscarf and went to help mum to bring the foods up from the kitchen to the living hall. My late grandfather, is not the friendly type, he doesn’t gave you candies and bring you sightseeing in the village, probably because he had stroke. I remembered, a few times, wait, let me continue in Malay. 

Selalu, petang petang, Tok Ayoh akan baring dkt depan rumah, ada tilam dia dekat situ. Nanti cucu-cucu dia yang nakal ni sibuk lah nak berlari-lari dkt muka pintu tu. Oh, aku taktahu macam mana nak jelaskan tapi dekat rumah tu, naik je tangga, ada ruangan besar jugak lah, sebelum pintu rumah. So Tok Ayoh selalu baring dkt situ lah. Kadang-kadang waktu tengah sibuk main tu, nanti Tok Ayoh suruh pijak belakang dia. Kenapa? Oh sebab nak urut dia lah. Aku kecik lagi kot masa tu, so pijak belakang Tok Ayoh okay lagi, tapi risaulah juga sebab yelah, still pijak orang kan tapi sebab Tok Ayoh minta, aku pun buat jelah. Dan, itu jelah pun benda yang Tok Ayoh akan cakap dengan aku, bila minta pijak belakang dia.

Cuma tahun tu, aku ingat. Tok Ayoh dah siap mandi, pakai baju melayu lawa dan dia duduk dekat kerusi, tepi meja makan tu. Dia tiba tiba panggil aku, muka Tok Ayoh masa tu gembira sangat. Aku pun sebagai cucu yang baik, aku pergi dekat dia. Lepas tu dia tunjuk, 

"Ni Tok Ayoh ado goni. Nok paka?" 

Tok Ayoh pegang minyak attar masa tu, aku sumpah tak tahu apa benda tu masa tu tapi melihatkan atuk aku seronok nak bagi aku pakai, jadi apa salahnya kan? So aku hulur tangan aku, dan Tok Ayoh pun rolled kan minyak atar tu kat pergelangan tangan aku.

"Ho, cuba along bau" 

Wangi. 

Aku senyum dekat Tok Ayoh dan aku ucap terima kasih pastu aku lari pergi bagitahu adik-adik aku suruh pergi dekat Tok Ayoh. 

Tahun ni tak balik raya Kelantan lagi, tak dapat nak ziarah kubur Tok Ayoh, cuma mampu doakan dari jauh. Jujur, aku tak ada banyak sangat kenangan dengan Tok Ayoh sebab tak duduk dekat Kelantan kan. Cuma insiden raya yang ni aku ingat betul. Aku rasa mama dengan abah pun tak tahu insiden ni sebab dorang macam sibuk siapkan adik-adik yang lain masa tu. Cuma, ini antara kenangan bila balik raya kat kampung lah. 

Tahun ni raya dekat Sydney lagi, buat kali ketiga. Perasaan? Tahun ni mcm emotional sikit, tak macam tahun tahun lepas. Kenapa? Sebab ada exam lepas raya kot sebab tu lusa raya pun, aku tak semangat lansgung nak masak apa apa haha.  

Anyway, probably this would be my Eid post for this year since I'm gonna have to sit for an exam on Tuesday, so Eid Mubarak everyone! Taqabbal Allahu minna wa minkum! May Allah accept it from you and us.