We are just too choosy, maybe

Hello there :D 

Alhamdulillah, my OneNote is now working again and you should see my face when I got it working again! I almost jump of excitement *maybe I did clapped my hand slowly and giggled without voice* when I managed to see my drafts again. Prolly you are wondering why I didn't just jump around like I always do when I am excited, because well, I was in the library. Most of the people were studying so have to respect them hihi.

Anyway, I scrolled through my notes there and I found this one particular draft dated; 26th May 2016. So I shared them here, something I wrote down there sort of tickle my head.

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Hello :) 

At the moment, I am waiting for my cold drip coffee. Well, it usually will take up to 12 hours but I've altered the process a little bit and I think that it might be finished in couple of hours. Meanwhile, I can process my video for the presentation this Monday. Since I am currently in the mood of explaining my project, so here it goes; 

I have to pair up with someone and I chose Amanda, since we both from Sunway so quite convenient to pair up with your friend. We are required to make a project using Arduino Due, bluetooth or wifi and we need to come up with an embedded system. So, we decided to make an automatic cold drip coffee maker! Yes, people, an AUTOMATIC cold drip coffee maker (Auto CDCM)! So, what is so automatic about this maker? What does it do? Well, this Auto CDCM actually would do most of the job for you, it'll be able to brew your coffee while maintaining the ideal temperature! So, you just have to press start and when the conditions are not ideal, it'll stop brewing and will ask for your attention, so you can quickly fix it up and start it again. After a few hours, voila! You'll have your cold drip coffee ready to be served the next morning! >.< 

Okay, that's most probably what I will be crapping in my video presentation. Anyway, since I am already here, I wanted to share a reflection with you. Random much? Haha, what will it be though? 

**drumrolls** 

Okay, tak payah drumrolls, but I'm just thinking how we often claimed that nobody listen, but actually deep inside we are just being too choosy. 

I am not talking about anyone else, I am talking about me here. I have that feeling also from time to time. Sometimes, I want THAT person to ask me how I was doing, how my life has been, I want THAT person to care for me, to talk to me. But in fact, at that moment, there has always been somebody that's there for me. I've noticed a friend posting on social media saying nobody cares but in fact, I always check up on her, from time to time. Maybe not all the time, but I checked up on her and every time I did that, she'll say everything is fine. Then it get quite frustrating to see that post you know, as if the fact that you cared, didn’t matter so in one way or another, the fact is that; you, didn’t matter. (or maybe I should give my friend the benefit of doubt here) 

I wanted to write about my personal experience but what had happened, it was beyond my control and I regret every inch of it. Maybe some other time, I'll share them with you. 

So are we choosy? Maybe yes, maybe not. We all get to choose, that’s our right and nobody can take it from us except God. It just that the fact that we claimed about it publicly make people hurt sometimes. True; you might tell me that the post was not directed to me, it was directed to someone else but how can I know that? If that post is so vague, how can I know where that post is being pointed to? So tell me, it is good to let out your thoughts, your worries, your overwhelming pressure on places where everyone can access? Where everyone will read and analyse and judge you? 

Where am I getting with this post actually? Haha, I don't know. It just that sometimes, when we want to post something on social media, blogs, Instagram or whatever else, maybe we can give a thought whether it would hurt people. It is hard to ensure nobody was offended but at least you try. Don't go too much of posting your picture with a friend with a caption "best-est friend ever" while actually the one who's been listening to your rants is someone else and you've been telling that person that nobody else cares. We don't want to hurt people that cared. 

Careful with what we said, careful also with what we post and careful with what we wish. We never know how wonderful this life can be :) 

Till then. Goodnight.